Regardless of How It Hurts

I shed one or two tears when i get really upset.

but rarely do i sob. i used to a lot. but now, doesnt matter how much it hurts, or how much i want a good sob, i cant do it. almost like im too empty for it.

i think i just detach before it hurts enough to make me cry.

and i learned not to when i was younger. it was like, when i cried, dad would see what he was doing to me... like it was proof he was upsetting the family... so he would get angry and i wasnt allowed to cry any more.

Tesse Tesse
18-21, F
8 Responses Mar 25, 2008

Cry like the wind John Coulter

Lately I cry a lot but I don't like it. I feel weak and ashamed. Especially when I can't control myself and start crying at work. I run to the bathroom and hide for a little while, but then I have to go back and I find it very hard to stop... I hate myself because I don't like other people to see me that way: that weak.

wow! I'm the same way. I simply can not cry. I can tear up plenty, and a good movie always does it. Good music, too. But when I really am feeling depressed and allow myself to wallow in my thoughts, put in the headphones and try to "let it out" NOTHING HAPPENS. ugh. I think I too, get detached before I can let it really hurt me. But we are hurting ourselves, I think, and creating deeper pain. maybe not...but that's how it seems. The moments that I have let go, and started to cry even a tiny bit, I subconsciously pull back, and stop crying.

crying is actually good 4 you i cry alot. i even scream alot it makes me feel even better maybe you should try that.

And if youre wondering what I base my promise on, well, its experience and a solid background in psychology.

Crying is a really important avenue of release. I had a father who relished tears, because it gave him a reason to say "I'll give you something to cry about".....not one of my fondest memories, to say the lease. But the point here is that humans NEED to cry, it releases hormones and stress and...well, it helps. Practice makes perfect right? Find the saddest, most heart wrenching movies, stories and songs that you possibly can, and give it a try. Who knows? Maybe you'll end up crying about all the stuff you've never really let out. I promise, it'll feel better.

i used to get that.<br />
or the screaming cry. where all you can do is open your mouth but no sound comes out. just tears

i know what you mean....<br />
when i was younger n things happened to me.<br />
i would write a diary, then wen i needed to cry i would look over it and shed my tears...<br />
sounds lame proberly but it helped, like it helped with a lot of other things<br />
xx