I don't know what to do or think anymore. I feel guilty, and angry at my own thoughts. Even though in my heart I know what I feel is true. My husband has made me question myself,my abilities, and my sanity. He knows the right buttons to push and treats me like I'm below human. My thoughts, opinions, feelings, and needs don't matter ( they don't even matter to his children). If they need clothing (since he is the main provider), I get yelled at (for bitching at him), if my son needs to be fed and I'm busy (he will wait until my son is screaming for someone to get him, while he's in the kitchen playing a game), and then cuss me out for not being able to get there in time. In his opinion, I'm lazy, stupid, and worthless... It's to the point that I'm beginning to think maybe I am worthless. I don't want to hate life. I don't want to think that this is all there is. Divorce isn't feasible when you have nothing and no one to go to. I've tried talking to him, and that does nothing but start fights. I've tried convincing him that we need help, and I get the cold shoulder. I'm not perfect, and I do make mistakes, but I have always been open to changing and working on our problems. I just don't know how I'm going to spend the rest of my life doing this. I'm sorry for taking up space, and writing such a long story; bit I really needed to let this out.
8ug91 8ug91
26-30, F
1 Response Aug 16, 2014

I may not be in a position to say much for my age. However, what made you marry this man from the start may get you to persevere on. While this type of problem is common among young couples, I guess you're one of them? You might want to talk to his parents instead