EMOTIONALLY Disconnected

WELL THAT IS WHAT A GROUP OF COUNSELORS TOLD ME AND AS I THOUGHT ABOUT IT WELL I FOUND IT TO BE TRUE. WHEN I FELL IN LOVE I KNEW IT BUT COULD NOT EXPRESS IT OR SHOW ANY OF MY FEELINGS. BECAUSE I NEVER KNOW WHAT EMOTION I AM FEELING. WELL I HAVE TRIED TO WORK THROUGH THIS BUT IT IS A ONE DAY AT A TIME PROCESS.
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31-35, F
3 Responses May 18, 2007

I feel EXACTLY the same way, your story reminds me so much of myself. I think it is good that others can share these feelings, I feel less isolated knowing so many others have a similar problem with their own emotions and how to express them!!

I feel this same way. When things happen, even tragedies, natural disasters, terrorist attacks, even ones that take place here, in my own state, not far from me, it doesn't mean anything but a brief episode of excitement of wondering if anything would happen here. But then, nothing. I don't care. People died. So what. Someone hates us - so what. They could blow this place up, me with it - meh. <br />
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I can have a "good time" with my friends, *at that time* but even in between laughs, I can feel utterly alone and out of place, and any good "feelings" I do have vanish immediately as soon as my visit is over. I am disconnected, my feelings are numbed or dulled to the point I don't have them, or feel like that - except I cry at movies, some "epic" and heroic parts, and sad parts, but I don't know why, I don't get that attached to most movie characters - it's almost like I have that reaction because the emotion being displayed seems beyond my reach.

Aww. that must feel pretty harsh. There is not much I can help you with than wish you the best of luck, and that I will be here for you if you want to share something: Cause I've found that it might be easier if you can share all one's feelings/thought with someone else to start with, and hopefully you will gradually be able to express emotions easier. Just message me if you need someone to talk to :)