I've never been able to express my emotions so they mostly come out as anger or depression. I have always been detached from other peoples emotions too. I get confused which emotion I'm meant to be feeling. Also as I'm sometimes expressionless people around me can't read my emotions from my face, and I don't know how to explain to people how I feel. Some emotions I just don't understand anyway. I couldn't bond with my mum mainly because I didn't know how to love her, I always believed it was a learnt feeling, I didn't realise it was something that came naturally. My relationships have been totally disasters because I can't give what is expected of me and as I got older I thought that to show someone I loved them I had to have sex with them, the relationships fell apart. I don't know what it feels like to be loved, even though I've been told in relationships that they love me, well they were staying with me for the time being so thats what it must of been like to be loved. I don't understand what its all about. I learnt a lot off watching movies how to act in relationships, but my fairy-tale endings just never happened.