I remember feeling love. I think I love cats. But I don't feel attachment. I tell people I love them but it's more for manipulation, to "rub them the right way". I've been really traumatized and I feel like I've turned in to a sociopath. I am crazy human intimacy and connection. I want someone to come along that I can really feel something for. I've never been in love and I don't think I ever will be. I'm not attracted to soft, fluffy people. I'm attracted to people that have darkness in them, like me. I have a very high opinion of myself and I guess I'm searching for someone I can see myself in. I feel like that's the only way I could get any type of chance at attachment. I feel alone but the world only makes me feel more lonely - when I see what sh*t people are.
Lyric8 Lyric8
22-25, F
Feb 2, 2016