I Love Him But..

My boyfriend cheated on me during the first month we started dating with his ex gf. He would talk so much crap about her and call her a **** and say she nasty and all this bad stuff. She told me that he cheated on me but before all that, he told me that she would probably be telling me all these crazy stories. So when she told me..I didnt believe it. I started thinking about it more so I talked to her. She said he cheated on me. And the weekend she said he did, was the weekend we didn't hangout. The ONLY weekend we didn't. I asked him repeatedly about it and he would deny deny deny. He denied it for 5 months. ON our 5 months I went to see him at work and earlier that day I had been messaging her off his account and got all the details. After nagging about it for about an hour, he admitted it. This is a man I completely gave everything too. I know I'm young, but I knew he was the one. We had planned out our whole lives together. We are still together but I think about it everyday. I have nightmares about it. I dont know what to do. I love him so much but I constantly worry. He spoils me like crazy and has bought me a real ring and is the best bf you could imagine. But I can't get over it. I think about it when he kisses me when he looks at me. While WE have sex. I don't know how to get over it. My world is shattered because I built my life around him. I know it was early in the relationship but what do I do?! Please help me. Don't say I'm too young ever.
13nikki0710 13nikki0710
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 17, 2013

Honey, its never too early in a relationship, cause relationships vary and some couples are just more meant for eachother so things happen fast for them, i talked about this to my long distance relationship alot and he said that its just how men are, its sooooo bad for them to refuse sex he said, he even said its better to break a leg than to refuse a sex opportunity, i mean i dunno its harder for me too to get over somethings but just try to forget about it, i know sometimes it will show up in your mind and your eyes will water and heart will feel so tight, but oh well its how it feels to be in a relationship. And if it bugs you too then talk to him about it or ask him for some space to get some clearity and get over it. Good luck.