I Don't Forgive My Momi know we r supposed to forgive and forget, but i cannot forgive my mom and i blame my parents for much of my past problems. when i was 14 and raped by my bf the first time i had sex, when i got home a couple of hours past my curfew and told my parents, my mother called me a *****. they blamed me, saying it was my fault for being at a 19yo boys house alone like that and said i was trying to blame him for missing my curfew. as punishment for missing my curfews, my mother would kick me out of the house for a week at a time, that being the first time it happened. i guess she thought it would teach me a lesson struggling to make it on my own, but kicking me out of the house with no where to go and no friends or family support only lead to my bf often selling me to other guys for sex. that experience alone changed my view of sex, it was no longer sacred, and after a while i no longer cared who the guys were, how old they were, what the guys looked like that i had to let touch me and let *** inside me; my feelings became numb though still always guilty and ashamed of what i was doing, but i blame my mother most of my problems that resulted from my childhood and teen years.
jenn2 41-45, F 11 Responses 5 Dec 2, 2011