This can't just be a story .... its too hard, too painful. It will have to come in chunks.... one of the worst things about it is feeling so ashamed. And played. Like, did everyone else know, and I was the one hiding behind my love for him so much that I couldn't face the truth? I still feel so foolish -- I wish I would have had the balls to just confront the whole thing with the two of them. I regret not having my say to them both when I caught them together. I told him I was moving -- he freaked -- he denied anything happened other than an "emotional affair" but I knew. I knew in my heart. I knew when I saw them drunk together. I just couldn't deal.
I still have so much anger because she gloated about it over me and he denies it ever happened. Its hard to get over something that he won't even admit he did. It sux. And yeah, it was the two of them but I just hate her so much. She was supposedy a friend. She was a bad friend and he was a worse boyfriend.