Post

Should Have Never Came Up.......

my boyfriend was with someone for a while before he got with me. i always had a crush on him ever since seventh grade. my sophomore year we finally got together after being close friends for a while. i never gotten along with his ex girlfriend "the grudge".  when we first got together she would still talk to him and he would always tell me he would tell her to stop talking to him.. that was a lie.. then for a while he had a friend request on face book for the longest time also and i would ask him why don't you just add that person and hes like i don't know who it is. turns out it was the grudge trying to friend him but he didn't want me to know.... then right before our 2 year anniversary i guess he started talking to her again who knows for how long this went on....  he was gone at college a couple hours away... she went to his college while i knew nothing and expected nothing.... we were perfect. well he cheated on me with her... he came home for spring break from college the very next day.... he could't have waited? he always would text me good morning that morning that she slept over he did not text me.. i worried about him all day wondering if he over slept and missed class... when he finally text ed me back i kept going on and on about how happy i was that he was coming home today and that he was such a good boyfriend... yeah.... he came home and acted weird he was home for a week then the night before he had to head back to college in the morning he was loving all over me it was so sweet and i was so happy. the next morning he says "you know how i told you i would break up with you before i ever did anything else.." and i started laughing i thought he was joking... then he started crying and apologizing. i just sobbed in shock of what he done to me... he ruined my life i have never been the same as i was before he did this to me... and i stayed with him and every single day i ask myself why am i letting someone just walk all over me that i let him get away with it... he lied about this stuff since the beginning I'm so afraid other things have happened I'm very old school i believe people have one love and should be faithful.. i need someone to talk to. i constantly wonder why? is he not over her? is she better than me? am i not worth anything? am i ugly? is she not over him? is he talking to her behind my back?
we recently moved in together he gets mad when i'm upset about what happened i don't know who to turn to i don't want my family to know then hate him
i love him so much more than anything but i cant get over this constant depression and it makes it worse when i see this grudge in public.... i wonder has he ran into her since then and what would he do....
i cry all the time and i cant ever seem to get this grudge out of the back of my mind.....
i was so good to him his friends constantly tell me how awesome of a girl i am and how they would love if their girlfriends were like me...
grumpy93 grumpy93 18-21 Nov 20, 2011

Your Response

Cancel