Will I Stay Or Will I Go?
My boyfrind of 8 years cheated on me almost two years ago, and I still can't let it go because I feel like he is still doing it. I thought that he may have been cheating so I changed the voicemail password and checked the messages( it was my phone, but he was using it) and I heard a message from a woman. My heart stopped. I had told everyone that warned me that he was not cheating, but deep down inside I knew he was. Anyway, I called the woman and she got an attitude with me and it blew up from there. To make a long story short, I went to his house and beat his butt. Then he called me and begged for me to come back or he was going to kill himself. I took him back, but only because I did not want her to have him. He had met this woman at a place he did A/C work and had sex with her and eventually moved in with her. She kept calling and driving by his house and then she would call while I was over, and finally she stopped. Now, everytime, I say something about her, he seems to get upset. Like if I call her out of her name. Then today he said that her son goes to Iraq next month.....why does he care? He said it is not about her, but he got close to her son. Her son and my boyfriend are the same age. She is almost the same age as his mom. I don't know how much longer I can take this. I had a miscarriage(second one) a week after this happened. I didn't know I was pregnant at the time. Now, mail is coming to his house with baby stuff and she was on medical leave a few months ago. I know because he told me a co worker told him. I don't think I can forgive him if she had a babuy and my baby died. I am so thinking about just ending this relationship no matter how long we have been together. I need someone to talk to. All of my friends hate him because of what he did to me after all the stuff that I have been through with him. I am so confused.04e77