My boyfriend and I have been dating 6 months. I'll jump right into it. At the very beginning of our relationship, we were essentially exclusive just didn't have official "titles". We go out to my favorite bar with all our friends, its a great night, until I look over and he's making out with this gorgeous girl I know. I approached him upset, he looks at me looks back at the girl and ignores me (he does claim he was way to drunk and does not remember any of this...). I left immediately. After some very rocky following weeks, I decided to give him another chance, forgive and move forward as he said nothing else happened that night and he went home alone.
A month into our relationship he reveals to me that he did go home with this girl and slept with her. He said he lied because he thought I would never give him another chance. The lie completely broke me. But I still decided to stay with him and try to work through this.
Anyways, now things are not good. I suppressed my feelings of anger, sadness, and betrayal the whole time because I wanted to have a tough exterior. Now I constantly question and interrogate him, get more jealous than I ever would, and feel extremely self-conscious when I go out.
Yes, there are still great aspects to our relationship, but how do I move on? How do I get my self-confidence back? How do I learn to trust again? How do I block out the horrible mental images I have of him with this girl he kicked me to the curb for?
Most likely we will break-up, but for the sake of my mental health, I would really appreciate any feedback, advice, or suggestions.