Still Missing Him
My ex-husband left me about 11 months ago and we've been going back and forth. Ive waited and waited, apologized, groveled, expanded my mind, stretched what I thought I could tolerate, and after all that he keeps saying despite all the good things that we can't be happy longterm. I just deeply believe that he is wrong, and that we have is unique and meant to be. I get so much strength from holding his hand or touching his arm or his cheek...we had a physical connection that i really trusted...i dont know how ill ever be romantic with anyone else. i used to make him so happy. i made some mistakes about handling my alcoholic first husband and #2 is so unforgiving. i almost wish it hadnt been so amazing and beautiful at the start, so i would not have something so perfect to miss. i know what i am saying is foolish and short-sighted. i just cant seem to let my feelings of being in love with him go.