Can't Forget Him.

Me and my boyfriend broke up after 9 months. He was my first, and I loved him with all my heart. We met online and he moved here for me and his school. but after 4 months of living here, he decided it was enough and broke up with me cause he lost his love for me. I was too needy apparantly. I didn't know what to do, that "neediness" was just care, and he had become so selfish and careless that I got so annoyed sometimes. I still loved him, even though he dissapointed me so much. I couldn't forget the person I fell in love with. After a month of being seperated we decided to hang out, and had a good talk. A day later he told me he missed me, we hung out again and we kissed and fooled around. I felt happy but weird, I had hated this person for a whole month, told myself to stop thinking about him and stop wanting him, and there he was again. I decided to give it a chance, but soon realized it was harder than I thought. He had hurt me so much by just leaving me like that, as if our relationship was nothing, I couldn't act normal, even though I wanted him, I was still annoyed with so many things cause he had caused me so much pain that I didn't deserve. We tried, but after two months we broke up because I felt he didn't love me anymore and I was just not able to forget the past. I didn't believe him anymore, while I was still so in love with him. It's been almost two months now since the second break up and I don't know what to do. I tried to be with other guys but they can't keep my mind off of him, it only makes me miss him more. We're still talking and trying to be friends, but I don't want to be friends. I want him to fall back in love with me and I'm so sorry for being so needy all the time. I realize it now, I want to tell him I've changed and that I made mistakes as well but there's no way in hell he's gonna wanna try it again. I shouldn't want it either, we're not the right persons for each other but my heart doesn't get that. Whenever we talk on msn he's so different than the way he is in real, I mean he's way nicer to me in real life. It's just weird. I feel like I should stop talking to him but I don't think my heart can take that :( How do I stop wanting him and realize we're just not meant to be? I can't seem to get over the "good days" and realize we're better off as friends. Please help me out?

missyou123 missyou123
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 14, 2010

u r a v gr8 lover dear... he z wrong... missssing u is his big mistake...

u r a v gr8 lover dear... he z wrong... missssing u is his big mistake...

sam here with me.. i dont kw wht to do...<br />
im feeling lonly restless..<br />
i wnt finish my self becoz i cnt live without him<br />
he is my 1st n last love ...<br />
pls hlp me to...