Is There Something Wrong With Me
I finally got a good job. at my 90 day review they told me i make too many mistakes . mistakes cant be made because its dealing with peoples eyes at an eye clinic. just the simple fact that i knew that, made me make mistakes. why when something is important it freaks me out to the point i cant think straight. its like i cant handle being responsible if something goes wrong. I could never be a nurse or doctor . someone could tell me give the patient the medicine in the red bottle , not the blue bottle that will kill them . i would give the patient the medicine that would kill them with an alergic reaction. due to the fact that i would be so nervous i would do the totally wrong thing. i would think about it way too much. and i would totally panic . my nervousness made me lose my job. its like i cant handle responsibility and i can handle a job where someones welfare is on your hands. how do some people thrive on that and i crumble. i literally flatline.