Heartache With No Kids
I have always wanted kids, and have been raising others people's kids since I was little, thats over 28 years now. It breaks my heart everytime someone throws it in my face that I cant ever be a "mom" because I cant have my own kids for medical reasons.
As I get older, it hurts inside even more, but hard to let others know because they do not understand. I see countless "real mothers" who hurt thier kids or kill thier kids everday and wonder why they are allowed to have kids and someone like me cant. I live my life for others, have almost completed my graduate degree, am a teacher, a Girl Scout leader, a nanny, and other things, but can never be a "real mother".
I dont understand and am tired of people rubbing it in my face. There are so many children out there that are placed in situations that are harmful, and all I want to do is take them home and love them with all my heart and soul.
I have never met anyone in my life before that fully understands how I feel. I believe that you all do.