Jealousy Has The Best Of Me, What Can I Do??I was diagnosed infertile when I took a fertility test 3 years ago. My specialist says its due from chemo, when I had leukemia. I have not been able to accept it, I cry myself to sleep, asking God what I did wrong why he gave me such a curse.
My sister in law has 2 children, my younger sister thinks she's pregnant, and ALL my friends are on their 2nd baby. I am so jealous that I can't stand to be around children if I do, I cry. If I hear that someone is pregnant I automatically dislike them. I don't want to be this type of person. But I'm afraid jealousy has got the best of me. I hate myself for it.
I just don't know how to cope with it, my husband and can't adopt we will never be able to afford it, as well as in vitro. I just need to learn and accept it. But I don't know if I can...
Are there any ways to help me cope??