I Can't Have Children
My husband and I were just married in May, however, we have been together for 6 years. I have never been pregnant. I would like to have at least one child, however, we have not been on birth control for about 5 years. We have not been tested or anything but it seems like after 5 years if we were going to have one we would. We are both in out late 20's and are pretty healthy. My husband did drugs when he was a teenager (NO he doesn't do them now and hasn't in over 6 years.) We don't drink, nothing like that.
I would like a child, yes, but it is okay with me (at this stage in my life) if we don't have any. I married him because I loved him, not because I wanted a "stud" service. He gets upset once in a while because he thinks something is wrong with him but he won't go get tested. He says, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. I agree, however, sometimes it hurts. His 18 year old cousin is about to have a baby. It is a little difficult to be around her, even though I try and did a baby shower for her. It's hard knowing that she's 8 years younger than I am but she is having a baby no one wants her to have.
How do you handle being around pregnant women, talking to them, supporting them when you want a child so bad?
