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I Just Can't Keep A Job!

I know I'm competent!  I'm a "good" worker.  I come to work on time.  I don't come to work in a foul mood.  I'm pleasant.  I don't have an "authority" issue with supervisors (granted I won't let anyone at any level mis-treat me).  I work well with a group (granted I prefer working alone). I'm smart.  I "get things done" and follow through.  I appreciate completing a task.  Money is not the biggest issue for me with work - doing meaningful work is.  I have been working (any paying my own way) since high school - and that over 30 years now.  But, but, but the older I get - the less I'm able to keep a job. 

"I Just Can't Keep A Job!"

Yes, I have skills (we can all use refreshers).

I do administrative work - nothing that will save the world - however it honest, a service people need and I do it well.
(Oh yeah, I have a BA degree...for the most part...its simply a Liberal Arts major).

However, as the years continue to pass, its harder and harder for me to stay at a job. 

At first - I did as was expected...I worked out of college for at one job for about 5 years.  And that's the longest in 20 years.  I had another job for about 3 yrs - left and came back - in total that was about 4 yrs.  Since then - for the last 10 years I've been unable to keep a job for more than 2yrs (really 1 year).  And most recently - in the last 5 yrs.  I've not been able to keep a job for more than 6months.  It kills me!  I feel like I"m dying.  Literally - like I'm dying.

No one at these jobs has been mean or out of place with me.  The money has been good.  And I get a job relatively easy (although that's changing with the economy and my age -  45+). 

However, I can't figure out "WHY"..."I just can't keep a job!"

Partly, I "know" (somewhere deep inside) it has to do with being Bipolar (which was diagnosed about 15 years ago - but I knew since high school over almost 30 years ago).  Also - I think I maybe/have ADD or ADHD - or one of those "attention diseases" - which make it challenging to stay focused - but so what!  Everyone has some kind of issue.  Many people have life threatening issues and they work - daily - and enjoy it.

And perhaps maybe that's my issue.  Never done work - I enjoyed.  I had a volunteer position once - and it was the only time every in my life I enjoyed my work - and that position lasted 5years - until I burnt  and had to stopped.

So I'm older these days - which is scary - to keep quitting (which - I always do) - I quit before they quit me (which is the last 3 years I've been "let go" 3 times)  and I'm about to quit the current job - which I've had since January 2011.  Anyway - I'm making an appointment to see yet ANOTHER mental health professional - who will probably want to prescribe me medz - which I hate.  I take for a couple of months - 6 - 1yr - then stop - and yes - as they say - I feel the "crash" - it harder to get my head straight and clear and have a balance(d) life.

So I'll make an appointment tomorrow to see the first Mental Health Professional I can.  I'm looking to establish is do have ADD - and what the options are.  Perhaps, maybe, just by chance - I will be able to get a job and keep a job - for more than a 1year (that's what I hoped for this most recent job).    The thing is - in life - "We can never give up hope" - and this I must tell myself always.  I'm single, have no one, no dog or cat, or children or even a partner - so work would be what keeps me "connected" - and without work - I am very lonely and very vulnerable to suicidal thoughts (which are often).  So I've got to find a job I can keep - its literally a matter of life and death for me...that I find "A job I can keep" for my life's sake.

Anyone else relate to THIS story?

I wish you balance, good health, and joy!
VenusE57 VenusE57 46-50 6 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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I can relate myself now 48 and in my working career ive had 30 jobs that I can count I worked heavy construction for a long time then I did the miraculous I changed careers to IT thought I would be successful but all the time I get fired for just not knowing my job well I havent been diagnosed with ADD but I know thats my problem I can never focus it bothers the hell out of me as all of my friends
and family can hold jobs for years I cant hold one a year its frustrating this has caused serious financial issue's in my life as I cant pay my bills on time so credit is tore up

I'm 47, bipolar and can't keep a job either. Finally, I've decided there's no point in living if I can't care for myself.
Good luck to you!

I'm in the same boat. I'm 27 y/o and I've had over 20 jobs. I can't handle one. Or I just don't want to. At first it's hard and frustrating and as soon as it becomes easy, it becomes boring. So it's either a hard life of constant new beginnings or a boring one of the same robotic crap day in and day out. Work sucks, bottom line. All that newage bull about finding what u truly love to do, comes from the same delusional happy-bot people who would find a way to love shoveling horse crap all day.

I'm in the same boat. I'm 27 y/o and I've had over 20 jobs. I can't handle one. Or I just don't want to. At first it's hard and frustrating and as soon as it becomes easy, it becomes boring. So it's either a hard life of constant new beginnings or a boring one of the same robotic crap day in and day out. Work sucks, bottom line. All that newage bull about finding what u truly love to do, comes from the same delusional happy-bot people who would find a way to love shoveling horse crap all day.

im 26 i cant hold a job for more than 1 year. i come in to work and do my job people love me and to this day my ex co workers still call me to hang out.. but i dont why i cant find my place where im happy to be there and stay there... i always questioned my self if i was ADD cause it seems like i cant finish anything i do and if i do finish it sure takes longer than the average person.. its a depresing thought and i cant tell you whats wrong cause i dont know what hell is wrong with me i hope i find a solution and i hope that you do too

I can relate to your story in many ways. I have noticed that the work force is changing. Things are getting too fast. I am over 50 and I can't even multitask to the level that is expected now in corporate America. I always thought I was intelligent and organized, but employers seem to expect too much and I find the pay is not enough to compensate me for the stress level of these jobs. It is very sad.<br />
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Good luck to you and lose those suicidal thoughts. It's just now worth it.