Is It Me.
I can't keep a job. Everywhere I go I seem to lose interest or just not care. The longest job i had was at a Call service center at dishnetwork, and I just got so depressed and trapped and couldn't stand that what I would be doing for the rest of my life was working at Dishnetwork. The job after that was an office, and everyone loved me but two people, which happened to be the Manager and the head secretary. I knew she was evil no one liked her, she hounded me and I felt like she knit picked. Now I moved on I work at a small office so mall it's just the owner, me, and the book keeper. Book keeper has been there 5 yrs. I do office work, but in undescribable massive amounts of different things that are very simple but there are so many things and so many ways to do them. Problem: She yells at me. I make stupid mistakes and she blows up. I've only been there 3 mos. and a half. I am still learning, i wasn't given any proper training, everything is trial and error, and I feel that there are so many distractions that the mistakes I make are stupid. These are the ones she yells at me over. I think she's wrong, and on top of that sometimes i get confused as to how to do something and I am intimidated to ask anyone anything. The boss sent me home today, said i need time to think about my performance and how i want to think about dealing with the company because the book keeper and I have argued big time for the second time. I am at a loss. I don't know what my problem is or how to fix it. I don't know how to stop making mistakes, The book keeper and I only get along when I do everything right, and I have before but it changes, theres only room for perfection and it's difficult to tell if I am gonna do a good job that day or not. I am very forgetful. How do I get rid of that. How do i work around that. I tried post its. I feel like I am treated like a door mat. I want to stop making mistakes but sometimes i feel communication among the three of us and our Technicians is....filled with so much tension. Is it me, or every single job I've had. Thing is, this is the first one I've really made an effort to keep. And it's still going hay wire.