But I Have To. Help!
I split with the love of my life 13 years ago but I haven't ever got over it. I married someone else, but it didn't last. I had no contact with him for 8 years but we got back in touch 5 years ago. That was when I really knew he was the one I should have been with. It always felt like unfinished business, like one day we'd be back together. Circumstances have meant that this hasn't happened.
He's been with someone else for two years and I'm ashamed to say I've been waiting for them to split up. I promised myself that if I ever got another chance I would grab it. I've messed up a couple of chances because I was too scared to tell him how I really felt.
Today he told me that he's engaged. I'm devastated. Now I really need to let him go but I don't know how. My heart can't take it. The worst part is I've agreed to meet him for coffee on Friday. We don't meet up often and I haven't been face to face with him for over 2 years. Maybe seeing him will make me realise I've built him up into something he's not and it will help. But maybe he is the man I think he is and I'll have to accept he'll never be mine. Help!