Nothing

I feel like there's nothing to like about me. My family doesn't like me, and recently I don't have any friends. I'm not a mean person. But I am sad a lot, and sometimes flaky. Nobody likes people like me. Sometimes I really hate myself. When I look in the mirror, I want to punch myself in the face. When I was younger, I used to do just that, as weird as that sounds. I just hated myself so much for looking the way I did, for acting the way I did, for feeling the way I did — I just wanted to hit myself over and over again until I couldn't feel my face or brain anymore.

Lately, I have been choking on my own self-loathing. I feel like this is how I'm always going to feel. There's no end in sight.

fightthedayaway fightthedayaway
26-30, F
May 4, 2012