I Just Can't....

i have the strength to pretned that everything is okay anymore. I just don't have it in me to fight anymorew. I dont have it in me to lie and say eveerything is fine, when its all just coming down, and crashing down hard...
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2 Responses Aug 13, 2010

I'm here with you, too. I too am tired of wearing the FUN mask and faking happiness when I feel like every time I hear someone dies I think they are lucky. The only real reason I haven't done anything drastic is that I have kids, and can't leave them with that for their entire lives, and that somehow, someway I hope that things get better...<br />
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What do we do? I am actually researching Bipolar disorder and BOY is it reeeeally sounding a LOT like me. I have felt this way since childhood...what about you?<br />
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Maybe we need to band together and help each other fight.

I know exactly how you feel because I am there Now and It's hard hiding behind that picture of happy when inside your dieing.. I am here I am getting through it slowly