Everyday I can't but wonder where did i go wrong? Did I **** off the Karhma Gods? I once lived in a home with a family that loved me, I had cars, a good job, and wanted for very little. Now i live in a converted motel off the interstate, alone, a slave to mass transit, with a job I can't stand! I loathe the thought of going to this job everyday and with Lay-offs looming, I someimes wonder if it will be a blessing. What Happened? I went to my brothers house today and while I was happy to see my brother I couldn't help but notice that I used to have what he has now. A wife that loves him, a daughter that adores him, cars, and a loving home , while he works only when he wants to. It made me sad and angry as I am happy for him and don't begrudge him for what he has. I guess my anger is about me and the sadness was about the loss.