I Cant Sleep At Night
lay down, toss, and turn. right side, left side, back, tummy, curled up, stretched out ,sit up for a while, then a walk ,then the couch, the love seat, the chair, the floor feet on bed, the sprawled out on the floor. back to walking, back to bed, over and over for hours. silence is an art. one i am all too good at. when all else fails, i find my self on the computer or in the study with a book. then try all over again, the a pain pill still no luck.
sleep use to be as simple as lay down cover up 5 deep breaths roll over and count back wards from 5 and i was out like a light. then the car wrecks and the abuse then the pain. now i'm lucky to sleep more the 20 to 45 min at a time if i can fall asleep at all. i have been like this for years. in the last 5 years i have only woke one person from there sleep and that was due to me not picking up a kids rattle before lights out. my life seems detailed around both my partial blindness and clear walk ways for the night walks i take.
to sleep for 2 hours straight would be a blessing from the Higher Powers.
sleep use to be as simple as lay down cover up 5 deep breaths roll over and count back wards from 5 and i was out like a light. then the car wrecks and the abuse then the pain. now i'm lucky to sleep more the 20 to 45 min at a time if i can fall asleep at all. i have been like this for years. in the last 5 years i have only woke one person from there sleep and that was due to me not picking up a kids rattle before lights out. my life seems detailed around both my partial blindness and clear walk ways for the night walks i take.
to sleep for 2 hours straight would be a blessing from the Higher Powers.
By:
kattarrin
Age:
22-25
,
Female
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