I guess i can't sleep because i have too much to think about. i just lay there and listen to the sounds all around. the smallest wind blowing. a small number of cars most likely going home or to the airport or maybe they are like me, and can't sleep so they go for a ride in the car and drive as the world is sleeping, feeling its all the world but them. i lay there thinking about my day and relive every moment; word and feeling again and again. on a number of nights i remembered deep memories ... i just lose myself in thought so much that sleep doesn't come.
And if i do get to sleep i have nightmares or dreams that are hurtful so now sleeping when its dark is both scary and hard.
There is nowhere i can get help from... i dont think this is going to do much good but all the same heres my story, thankyou for reading.