More Situational Than Personal

college, honesty, surgery. all so called sure things that were supposed to set me up for happiness. all of which broke my heart and left me without motivation, faith, or hope. for me, losing those things cut deeper than any fledging romance could. for as long as i can remember, i'd been conditioned to think of the people in my life as a mere transience. still, i always had my determination to find something better. and the belief that it was actually out there. now, i'm really not sure its tangible. thats painful enough, but whats really killing me right now are the late night flashbacks to when i was happy and full of anticipation. its taunting and just one intangible, among the many, daily tangible reminders of how far i've fallen over the past year.
delusionsofglamour delusionsofglamour
18-21, F
Jul 14, 2010