I Miss You

i miss my daughter so much.i have lost a husband my house and now my car in a crash but wost of all i have lost my daughter.i struggle to sleep bcause my heart aches so much without her.the physical pain i feel from my accident is still nothing compared to the lose of a child.i see her now and then on others terms due to trickery.i have choices.painful choices to make and have made painful choices but when it comes down to it she is whats most important to me even if it means living in misery for the rest of my life.i just want her to be happy.
freeangel freeangel
31-35, F
4 Responses Nov 14, 2010

thank you for your kind words unspankedbrat77

i am scared its too late

thank you for your comment.i totally agree with you.its true i am past tierd and was at a loss of what to do.thank you for telling me :)

A big hug for you. I know that feeling. You are exhausted but just when you stop and try to rest you find your mind keeps going over all the things that have happened to you. The bond between mother and chld never ends regardless of living arangements or distance. She will return to you - children always do. <br />
What I think you should do is firstly get some rest. People often go for sleeping tablets at times like this but I have found through my own experience that they are not useful in the long term because they have no effect on clearing your troubled mind.<br />
I think that you need to learn some relaxation techniques. Scruntch your whole body up and hold tight for 20 seconds then totally let go, flop back on the lounge and feel what relaxing is. Do this 10 times in a row and do it twice a day. Your body needs to remember what relaxation feels like. You can buy relaxation music on cd and the ones designed to make you sleep are very useful. (I used to think that these things were hogwash but I know that they work now) and baby when you need them-you need them.<br />
You need to mother yourself. You need rest, good food and to avoid alcohol and drugs of anykind. You need to find someone to talk to, a skilled counsellor is trained to help if you don't have anyone in your life that can help you work through your problems impartially.<br />
You need to push a path through all the 'roadblocks' that are stopping you from creating your new home and new life. After all your daughter needs her mum and she needs a happy place to come to when she has her own problems as she surely will.