the noise feels safe for me. i can't say i completely dislike silence because it's valuable in many experiences in my life. but i also just realized that the noise also masks a lot. fear. [i would rather not hear strange sounds in the dark]. loneliness. [i forget easier how alone i feel when i hear music]. personal discomfort. [i feel so uneasy alone. i know i say i love to be alone but sometimes i think that should also mean being alone in completely soundless spaces and i fail at that everytime]...i'm happy for this's helped me dissect why i need that noise. not only when i sleep, but literally all the time!
TheRealMimi TheRealMimi
31-35, F
Feb 26, 2010