Everything About This PlaceI was so excited at first when I got the job. I thought "oh my God, I'm going to do my best, and work hard" I was so thankful that I was no longer jobless and feeling inadequate since my friends had found great jobs within their fields. Not this job, this job has nothing to do with my field, but I didn't care, I accepted it, and was thankful...until...
1-I worked with two Supervisors both are scientists and conduct research in their labs. They both were new at the company I was hired to work in, and expected me to know all the protocols, procedures of the company. I went through trainings, worked hard, got acquainted with people, I was eager to show that I was more than thankful, but also that i WAS DETERMINED TO DO THE BEST JOB I COULD DO.
2-One of my supervisors (Mari) threw business cards on my desk "here put them on the databa
3- Being new means having to ask questions, so whenever I went to her lab to ask her a question her response was "what are you doing in here? don't ask me, find the answer somewhere else" but i needed her input to process important legal paperwork.
4- One day I brought lillies to my office space, they bloomed over the weekend. On Monday as I was fixing the printer, Mari came in and said "if you wanted to kill me all you have to do is leave lillies, I'm highly allergic to them". I was in shock, I didn't know what to say.
5- One of Mari's postdocs also caught up with her and began to harass me, he once sent me an email stating that I wasn't doing my job "that's what you are here for"
6- The negativity I was experiencing from one supervisor spilled over to my second supervisor. Things started to look very unpretty. I now was the person to blame for anything, if the purchasing department doesn't do its job or takes its time in processing orders, ITS MY FAULT!
7- Mari gave me her biosketch (a form of resume but in the scientific field it includes their publications) in my mind I was puzzled as to how was I supposed to edit her resume. I did what I could and the best I could, mind you English is NOT my first language...what did she do? She threw the papers on my desk and stated "a good editor spends more time editing" At that point I had it, I confronted her, i TOLD HER THAT I WAS GOING TO LEAVE. She stated that "with that kind of attitude you will go nowhere". I was furious. I stayed.
The next day I woke up with a terrible pain, I thought it was caused by stress an anxiety. It wasn't here its when the nightmare began and my cancer antigens went off the roof. I had to fight to keep my job so that I could go through surgery.
8- I stayed with the second supervisor, but as mentioned the negativity had already spilled. In the months between march-June I was visiting doctors from oncology, gynecology, and generalists to determine what was wrong. On March 31st I got my surgery done, it was due to an endometrioma that had disintegrated thus causing the high levels of CA-125, i was also found with ovarian cysts, and endometirosis. I stayed in the job no longer because I wanted to or because I was happy that I was no longer unemployed, but because I needed the medical insurance coverage.
9- After coming back to work from surgery Mari fought to take away my workstation (computer, printer EVERYTHING) she won. I had to start from scratch.
10- I can't concentrate at work, working with scientists its depressing. I am miserable in here. I should be grateful I have a place to work in and that the job took care of my illness...but at what price? I am treated as the scapegoat by my second supervisor...she is good friends with Mari...I'm very sad in here.
thanatophobic 22-25, F 6 Responses 2 Aug 23, 2011