Envy Me, I Found Out I Am Already For The Holidays

Yesterday was my birthday. It went about as bad as they always do. I'm not great about my birthdays or some aspects of the holidays. I would like them to go better, but I just can't seem to make it happen. To top this off , it aggravates my wife intensely. I just don't need her extra insults on top of what I'm trying to pull out of. Yesterday I guess “we” came up with a solution. I will just be left out of the holidays and we will not celebrate my birthday anymore. For the holidays she will just go over to the daughters house. Although this seemed a hard enough pill to swallow, today she added that she is still going to decorate, because she likes it. This going to be a challenge, because if she senses that I am feeling sad it will infuriate her. I need to figure out how to act mildly pleasant for that upcoming “season” no matter how I feel. This hopefully will make the holidays a bit more bearable.