Tear After ******* Tear.

i just sit here and cry. and nobody even notices, even when my mascara leaves black lines down my face. i look like ****.

i have never cried this much in my life. i feel sick. im shaking. im a mess, and i know it. when i stop it just builds up inside of me. and then i cry again and they just pour out of my eyes.. i dont even know. im so sad right now. i always just resorted to a razor, but i cant now so i just sit here and cry. wishing for things to go back to how they were. but they never will. i want to be happy and all i can see now is blurred vision and black hands.

i cant think. i just keep crying.

asdflkjghlove asdflkjghlove
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 30, 2008

I understand where you're at, and I promise I'm not just saying that to comfort you. I see you wrote this quite a while ago; I hope you're feeling better. If you ever need a friend, advice, or just someone to rant to, I'm here. I may not know you, but that doesn't mean I don't care. Just remember that.

I'm sorry to hear this, I've been there over and over. I am under so much medication right now that I am totally numb, but at least i don't cry anymore. Try talking to someone, even if it is someone completely lost like us. You can contact me if you want to, just to spill your thoughts. At least someone will listen, you don't have to be alone in the dark, good luck.