Tear After ******* Tear.
i just sit here and cry. and nobody even notices, even when my mascara leaves black lines down my face. i look like ****.
i have never cried this much in my life. i feel sick. im shaking. im a mess, and i know it. when i stop it just builds up inside of me. and then i cry again and they just pour out of my eyes.. i dont even know. im so sad right now. i always just resorted to a razor, but i cant now so i just sit here and cry. wishing for things to go back to how they were. but they never will. i want to be happy and all i can see now is blurred vision and black hands.
i cant think. i just keep crying.