Can U Stop This?
I am sitting here crying I can not stop I have had a rough couple of years with my divorce remarriage loss of my mother, mother in laws and not to mention the numerous attacks on my personal self be it verbal or my own health issues.
I am getting ready to make a ultimate choice of moving to the country where I know two people outside my husband and step-son. I am trying to rebuild a deteriorating marriage and to my dismay I have sat here after a major blow out argument with my husband..I have no-one to talk to about this. Absolutely NO-ONE!
Through the latest events with my husband I ended up staying with my father and brother while things were getting "worked through" I have never had a "great" relationship with the other members of my family(females) The tend to care about only their little circle. After my mother passed I had a major fall out with all of them with the exception of my g-mother. After a brutal rejection from her "I will never talk about that again" I stop all contact with her.
Because I made my life my children and they are now grown one married with a child of his own, one went to his father. I am here, no friends due to lack of socialization for fear of being hurt.
I can not scream loud enough to release the emotions that only can be described as....worse than being lonely so what is a word for that.......****!!I hate this feeling!!!!! a computer can not hug you and say I understand the keys are not big enough!!
And if things could not be worse..I have been diagnosed with Fibromyalsia!!Ain't that a kick in the teeth!!!