I Am Simply Confused

This is my first time sharing.
I think I might be in love for the very first time but I don't know.
This guy just drives me crazy. He's on my mind 24/7 and my face just lights up when I get a text from him.
He's not quite the boyfriend material I guess.
I asked him to be my boyfriend once and he said he didn't want a relationship.
It somewhat hurt me. But I was fine with it and we continued seeing eachother for about a month.
After we stopped seeing eachother we became friends again but I still had feelings for him and I still do.
Now were.are back to somewhat seeing eachother but nobody knows only my closest friends.
I'm confused about what he feels for me. I just wish he would feel the same way I do but I don't think I'll ever know.
I sometimes think I should just stop talking to him to get him off my mind. But a part of me thinks something can still happen between us. I don't know what to do :/ i'm simply confused..
Vintage19 Vintage19
18-21, F
Nov 16, 2011