I Don't Want To Stop

I never thought I'd be writing this story because I never saw myself recovering from the pain I was feeling. In my mind I had closed the door to love and maybe if it had not been allowed to grow in it's own time I would have run from it.
Once it is right in front of your face there is only so long you can deny it. When he's on my mind all the time and I play it down to my friends like it's no big deal I'm not sure who I'm trying to convince, them or myself. As much as it scares me to admit it this is real and this is happening.
Every message brings a smile to my face, even if it's just a single word. Every conversation makes me laugh. The connection to him and the way we can relate to each other is undeniable. Even if I wanted to I cannot turn away from this and I cannot turn away from him.
People have a way of getting under your skin, becoming a necessary part of your life without you even realising. I won't pretend I'm not surprised to be feeling this way, it is unexpected to say the least, but I cannot remember the last time anything felt so good.
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May 8, 2012