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I Cant Stop Thinking About My Rape

Plese Dont Judge:)

By: deadbydawn
Written on November 17th, 2012
Age: 13-15 , Female
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9 responses
  • Gemma8

    Parties clearly aren't safe anymore, so avoid those. Get clean cut, good friends. And don't let savages and ruthless thugs in your life in any sort of way. You've been through a lot, too much for someone your age. Let your parents know that you're feeling extremely down and need a therapist or someone to talk to/express your feelings and worries. Try yoga and meditation classes to try and cope with your situation. and more than anything just stay around people you trust and people that love you unconditionally.

    Feb 1
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  • lela201265

    i know i dont know what your going through but i know how to support you one of my friends got raped also buy a family relative and i can't imagine how much pain you havee but its not your fault you shouldnt suffer for that He should dont let him make you weak and want to end life he needs to be put away no matter what people say its Not U msg me if you want to talk

    Dec 3, 2012
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  • hornymother

    its a big bad world dear, people cheat and use people, there is no mercy. you have been strong so stay strong. such people who are mean don't deserve to be remembered and are best forgotten. move on with life and am sure u will get someone who loves u and understands u and even if u don't god will give u strength to stand strong :)

    Nov 22, 2012
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  • beputty

    You are obviously an incredibly powerful and strong woman to post this message. Take pride in the fact that you have a lot more strength than women twice your age. I encourage you to take the fight back. Rape is about power and exerting it over someone else. This is in no way your fault in any way shape or form. Take this to your school counselor, they have heard this before and will be able to help empower you to overcome this crisis. If you were my daughter I would hug you and tell you that I love you.

    Nov 18, 2012
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  • B33z

    Don't let one person ruin your life forever. It's not very fair on you and it's letting him win. I don't know how the police system works but I'm sure they could help and I am so sorry you had to go through with this but stuff happens for a reason. Maybe those reasons are all messed up sometimes but don't let it get you down :) Some people say life is short. I say it's the longest thing you'll ever experience until you're on your death bed in your 90's to 100's :)
    Also, don't focus on the past. Like my dogs, don't dwell on the past and you stay happy for longer wagging your tails all day long. Or in human cases with a smile on our faces. :)

    Nov 18, 2012
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  • lachy12

    sorry. You need to get good friends. Go to cops . dont be afraid.
    Everything passes...you will grow up one day and leave this behind you
    xxLachy

    Nov 18, 2012
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  • HumanLion

    These are not just a few words to mellow your sorrows, I mean it - Tell me who he is and I will bring him at YOUR feet. I know how it feels. Some people do things, which they regret later on in life. What goes around comes around, don't worry, he will get what is coming to him one way or the other. You are an upright, honest and strong person. Have no worries, what is gone is gone, what is present and lies ahead count the most. Take care!!!

    Nov 17, 2012
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  • Ge0rge

    Hello,
    First off let me say how deeply sorry I am to hear the fact that you had to go through this ordeal. Sometimes things happen in our lives that create pain and misery. It happens to many, if not all of us. However if you continue to fight for life - and try your hardest to make it a life worth living, chances are, you will find what you are looking for :)

    I sometimes watch a guy on YouTube who often reminds his viewers that life is long, and there hope for those that want to make their lives better. I know that you may be hurting right now but please remember that suicide is not the answer at all. Please do not hurt yourself. You are a child of God and He loves you.

    I do not know of you are religious or not but when times get hard, talk to God with an open heart. He really does listen and I think the reason I am here to help you in this post is through His intersecion.

    I see that you are only 15 years old and it pains me to see someone as young as you having to go through something like this. You also mentioned having some good friends that helped you through a rough time. Talk to them about what you feel and of they really are true friends, they will help you through this.

    On the subject of the miscarriage, I realize that losing an unborn child may be one of the most painful things in the world. Remember one thing though, this was not your fault at all. It is something natural that happened at the wrong place at the wrong time.

    I'd like to tell you something I read a while back about suicide with young people. As you are 15, I believe it applies to you:
    - You are young, gifted and special in your own way. Suicide is not the answer to your problems. You haven't yet lived out half your life yet. This means that there is over a 50% chance that you haven't seen the greatest movie of your life, heard the greatest joke, smiled the brightest smile or even met that one other special person that gives you butterflies in your stomach, the one person who you will love and will love you for the rest of
    your life. Live and experience these things. Life is long and it is a gift. Make the most of it. Fight for life :)

    Remember, you're awesome!
    Regards,
    A friend you haven't met

    Nov 17, 2012
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    • deadbydawn

      thankyou!this comment was really helpful especially the part where you talked about not living half my life yet, thanks:)x

      Nov 17, 2012
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