Vindicated

I am only 16 years old. I'm still a baby. I have been raped 15 times in the past year and a half. My own brother was responsible for more than one of them. Not only did he rape me.. he video taped it and forced me to watch it. I can not stop replaying that tape in my head. I'm wasting away. Fading into nothing. I cannot keep any food down, I probably weigh 90 pounds. That's really all I have to say right now.
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5 Responses Nov 28, 2012

i was raped 15 or more time and it was all my cousin who did the raping he lives with my family and me nd he fell in love with one day so i know how u feel but we got to be strong

I'm so sorry u r still a baby I was raped twice 1 by my godfather 2 was my sisters friend I didn't know she hated me that much to plan him to rape me and both times I gave birth to a daughter and son so it's hard to live life I understand I'm so sorry

keep strong.. and if you can.. do not blame yourself...

I am sorry for what you have been through. Its surely difficult for us to understand what you are going through but take this opportunity to take your life to a new stage. Its not easy i can tell, but it is not impossible either! If you have survived this that means you have the strentgh to go further in life and be normal. One step at a time and you will be there. :) Take care and stay strong!

My sympathies for what happened to you. My friend, she is around 19, was in a similar situation as you are in. Luckily she stumbled upon a very very nice and caring person with whom she talked to for around six months day and night via telephone and used to run to him with the slightest of problems. She is doing pretty well, started reading books, taking interest in extra curricular activities, eating normally, treating others well, eased down on the confused and frustrated part. You know how she did it, she trusted. I know it will be hard for you to trust again and will take time, but I have a feeling you can do it and my feelings are hardly ever wrong.