Seriously....enough Is Enough

I know that my healing will not actually start to happen until I deal with my disgusting ex.

  My therapist asked me today....When is going to be enough?

I thought I had enough already.  I left him.  I am doing things on my own.  I am surviving.  Am I really?
I need to take him to court.  That terrify's me.  I know to end my abuse I have to deal with him.  Stand up to him in court.  I am soooooo f'n scard to do that though.  He may not show and that will be a good thing.  However to share my story with the judge will be trying enough.  He won't take any responisbilty.  Abuser's never do.  I am still in a position of trying to save what little I have left of my anything.  That is seeming to be worthless.  I have to find me.  Lost her somewhere but I have to find her.  So .........officially I have had enough! 

The fight begins......

Can't wait for the ending.  Regardless the result!
flodials flodials
41-45, F
2 Responses May 23, 2012

you will find her, lovely. take a moment to walk on the beach or smell the wonderful fragance of your favorite flower. maybe even buy yourself some flowers. not sure if you've tried it before, but yoga is a wonderful way to relieve stress and find the 'isness' of the present moment. it's a wondeful practice to incorporate into your daily life and something you can hold with you forever! <br />
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blessings and healing xx

Some time has passed but you will be just fine! Your strength here will be invaluable for the future. Believe it or not, you're now starting to live life!