Make It Stop!
Now the evil part… the x is going to make me drink! All I wanted was a nice afternoon with my friends and I instead got his drama before and after my lunch date! He’s mad that he has to pay more. Apparently this little fact has just started to sink in and he wants my head on a platter. I’ve tried everything to calm him down including offering to submit applications for work on-line but he just wants his way or nothing. I’m tired of being yelled at, I’m tired of being told this is all my fault, I’m tired of crying! Why should I keep working a million jobs when it wasn’t just me that made those babies? Honestly I’d love nothing more than to be self supportive and not need his ******* money but that’s not the case and now I have to deal with him just to get by. I’m not lazy by any means; I’m not asking for more than my share, I’m asking that his stupid, lazy, good for nothing, *** get up and get a ******* job! UUHHGG! When I get to the car first thing I am letting out is this anger! One great big SCREAM!!! My tummy has been on fire all day, which is all stress and secretly why I really picked at lunch and brought it back with me. It just hurts to eat at this point so why aggravate things even more. He makes everything hurt from my head to my heart and I’m so sick of being his victim. Now his parents return tomorrow from Cuba and I’m sure he’ll turn everyone against me even more so than they already are. Whatever… I’m gonna work on potty training the baby and then get the childcare grant that I so need. I’ll find a way to get the childcare and take them out of his grip… all of their grips!