My Problems

oh where to start...
-my moods are up and down- not sure if its Bipolar or just a cause from stress
-I don't feel pretty because of a hormonal imbalance (pcos) which has caused me to develop excessive hair everywhere.. totally not attractive when your trying to get intimate with someone
-feel its hard to even start a relationship because I have so much baggage that I dont believe anyone could really move past if they really knew.
-stretch marks
-white acne scars from pcos
-mole on face
-scar on leg
-no money
-hard to find a job because I don't have any education or experience
-tried going to post secondary but got booted out at the end of my first year because the teachers thought "it wasn't for me" so now trying to figure out what career is for me and I feel quite lost, i've wasted 3 year of my life trying to figure out what I want to do and its been to hell and back ever since
-paying pay my student loan all for nothing, can't even continue on with it or use it for any job. 15 grand down the drain.
-I feel alone, don't have a close group of friends or a boyfriend... haven't dated in 3 years. 3 years...I don't understand why. but I feel like if I did have a boyfriend it probably wouldn't work out because of my stress levels and moods and because I don't talk a whole lot
-hard to find motivation anymore. hard to go for runs anymore because I just feel so mentally exhausted.
-deprived of life since I was a kid... feel like I really haven't accomplished anything
-christmas time is always hard financially and because my parents are separated which is a good thing, it just makes it difficult trying to please both sides
-feel like skipping christmas all together because it just makes me feel depressed. I'm the only one that has never brought a boyfriend home for chrismas... I get bugged about it all the time. they probably think im a lesbien.
-My life plan has been completely thrown out of the window.
-would like to go back to school, but have no idea what I want to do and don't have the money to do so and I really don;t want to get myself more in debt.

purplemuch purplemuch
Dec 9, 2012