Just had it, really had it. The straw that broke the camels back has just been layed down. And I am done, finished, finito! So where to go from here?
I have spent 11 yrs working my butt off to take care of three children. I used to work full time but HE wanted to try something new that he had always wanted to do. So I figured "ok" go ahead. So we moved, and my career took a turn, but I kept working, through two pregnancies and put my kids in day care each day. Driving away to watch some stranger taking care of my babies. But I did it. Then HE lost his job and so we had to move again, and the job didn't come so easy after that. Then I got pregnant and this pregnancy was hard, very hard, my body was trashed, and I couldn't work anymore for a long time. Now the kids are at the age where I am driving them here and there and all around. They get sick and I have to take time off, so I am no longer able to work and be a reliable employee. One son has learning disabilities that I research and try to get help for. The other had spinal surgery and has major growth issues so he needs my help with that. And now my *** of a husband says I don't do anything around "here" and that I should go get a part time job. I bust my butt more now than I ever did at my full time job, but it doesn't bring him the money so I guess I am not worth ****? 11 yrs I have busted my *** to do it all, and I am not worth anything?
Enough, I can't take this anymore. And then I tell him I can't take it and I want to leave and he goes and tells my young children that "Mommy wants to leave us", so now my kids think I don't want them...what the hell is that? No way am I putting up with this anymore...Im done!