That's Right. I Can't Wait.

I hate him. Nearly every single thing about him.

And so I'm planning to leave. I rented a safe deposit box at the local bank and I've been stuffing cash in it for a few weeks now. 

He's a lawyer. Always has to be right. And he puts me down all the time. He just wanted a trophy wife. I have a master's degree in psychology, which makes me feel especially stupid that I fell for him, initially.

He's a classic narcissist.  Knows it all.  Completely inflexible. Keeps in constant contact with his ex-girlfriend when he knows it bothers me so. Or, should I say "used to" bother me.  He's a braggart, too.  Claims to have close ties with much of Hollywood, and to have famous ex-girlfriends.  Yeah, right.  Claims to have started to Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, even, but was "bought out."  Two words ----> Puh-leeze.  Claims he's slept with hundred of women, owned modeling and talent agencies all over.

Lies, lies, lies. Right from the beginning.  Lied about his age (said he was 10 years younger than he is).  Said he was open to the idea of having children together.  Now says he wants none.  Doesn't want me to work. Doesn't want me to have real close friends.  Just superficial ones who have lunch together but don't talk about "personal stuff" ~ because that's too private.

Wants to just dress me in pretty clothes to show off to his friends.  Hates the idea that I have a life outside of "him."  Showers me with trips here and there, and at the same time wants to anchor me to "here" ~ a home in a secluded place that I've learned to hate, hundreds of miles from my family.

The light at the end of the tunnel signifies freedom for me, and my two children. 

And soon the day will come, where he's in my rear-view mirror and I'll never look back.

I hate him so much.


Lunasister Lunasister
5 Responses Feb 9, 2009

I am also in the same thing very similar traits. Likes to play head games etc. Im not financial lyrics stable yo live on my own. I am at the point where I don't care about that part of it. I'm scared & mentally drain rd. I need to be smart about it and get my finances right. I'm researching Web modeling & need to know what site is the best Web Cam model in pays the best to get started.

if anyone reading this has similar plans on leaving an abusive husband/boyfriend and would like tips on how to do so safely and without him knowing, please contact me. i have planned this out in a very precise manner, and with a lot of thought put into it, and it has worked out perfectly. i even planned out how to bring in a steady income through unemployment insurance, without him knowing. i have also become very skilled with how to obtain and hide money confidentially, during the "waiting period" of leaving him.<br />
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so please contact me if you are in a similar situation and need help. i would be glad to walk you through it.<br />
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and please know that if i can do it, any of you can.

thanks for responding! and guess what?! TOMORROW (06/17/09) is THEE day. yes i finally decided to leave him, and the moving truck arrives at 9:00 am. and i couldn't be happier. i couldn't believe i found the guts/strength to leave him! and i'm not shedding a tear! except for maybe tears of happiness! :)

Wow, he sounds like my guy. <br />
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He especially can't stand when I talk about "personal" stuff. He is sooo controlling and all and I can't stand it. At least you have your Master's already. Good Luck with everything.

Try rolling some dice and whatever it lands on equates to what you do about the situation.<br />
If you roll a:<br />
1.) Before leaving him, slap him across the face<br />
2.) Before leaving him, punch him in the face<br />
3.) Sit down with him and talk about all the feelings you've put here in this blog...<br />
4.) Try and seduce him, turn your love into hate, love and hate arent that different things you know.<br />
5.) Leave him for a trial period, see if he then appreciates you more.<br />
6.) Suggest going for a romantic trip together to rekindle your passion<br />
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Youre so caught up in emotions and feelings that take a step back, and let fate decide your next move, try reading Luke Rhinehart's 'The Dice Man', could help!