Sexually Deprived For Your Freedom

I met my marine in high school, i was a freshman and he was a senior. It went grand from then on, i never really heard anything about the military the first couple of months. He was a state championship wrestler and i just assumed that he would persue that in college. It wasnt till about our fourth month that i FINALLY went over to his house to meet his parents. When i walked into his room i swear it was like a damn swat meet in there for marines: posters, old shadow boxes, magazines, EVERYTHING. I looked at him and he just simply said it was something he use to think about. I brushed it off from then on and the situation wasnt brought up for a while. Around our 8th month my best friend died in a horrific car accident, she was really all i had besides him, and i was devistated. He was there for me as much as he could be and high school was starting to be over for him. We were sitting on the couch the night after his graduation and he said " I'm not book smart, i dont do anything technial, caity i'm marine material." I didnt even analyze what he said, i just blew up. All i could think about was oh my gosh, i just lost my bestfriend and now this guy that i have completely fallen for is trying to leave me too, i figured it was better to cut it off then and there, so i ended it. He went home and called me that night and said he loved me to much and that he would never speak of it again, as selfish as it was i was happy. Over most of the summer nothing was even rometly spoke about it, untill one day we were on our way to florida and i just felt god tug at my heart, i turned to look at him and i said , i will stay with you if you want to go. It was the happiest day of his life and the worst day of mine. After our vacation he didnt waste anytime signing those papers. School started, my sophmore year, and off he left for bootcamp. Those were the WORST three months ever, but i'm telling you when i saw him graduate i knew i COULD TAKE HIM HOME it was the best time of my life, i wouldnt trade it for the world. We've been together for three years now he is a corpral and he is about to do his first deployment in january as a sniper. We have decided that we will not get married till after his first deployment but we are engaged, i've never been so scared in my life, he's all i have left and i feel that i cling to him so much because i lost my best friend, but he's my future, and all i can do is pray that god keeps him safe.