Been An Habit For Years
ive always been this way since i was a little girl. i feel like ppl are starin at me(when their not) or tryin to figure me out by lookin at me. im scared of lookin the wrong way or sayin the wrong things. so i act differently wit diff ppl. even with family members. so if u dont knw me i come off as shyor strunk up. only because i have mothig to talk bout. i dont really stick up for myself whn i hear sumone tlkin bout me. i have to b n the mood. i dont know. i hate when i dont that though cause its annoyin. ive been workin on not carin but then i start to care. its jus a big uggghhhh. im an adult now. my world shuldnt involve other ppls views on me whn they dont know a thing about me. but thats what we want from others. praises n acceptance. when we dont have that then we're alone n less confident bout ourselves than we need to b. we have inner strength but to afraid to let that out. its 2010 time for some new changes. i just hope that ill change for the better.