More Common Than I Think We 'think'

I'm not the stereotype for this sort of thing (I think). I'm a 39 year old male professional. I have a Masters and have been a teacher for over a decade. However, I recently realized I've spent a lot of life either trying to make people think a certain way about me, make others think a certain way about another, or even revolting and sabotaging what someone might think of me just to attack the notion that I care what people think of me.  Irony anyone?

It works so subtly.  I think few of us realize when we do this. At certain points of life we're quite aware it's occurring. However, I think as we grow older our subconscious (ego) grows more clever and makes it occur w/out our knowing. I think the more we realize it's our subconscious (ego) acting on our behalf, we can better "cut it off at the pass" before our automatic behaviors take over. I'm not there yet, but I'm convinced that greater awareness will get you there.  Thoughts?
hudst5 hudst5
36-40, M
1 Response Apr 29, 2009

Interesting thoughts. I think you are right, but I think sometimes it is because we get more comfortable with how people see us and we have to maintain that for ourself at all costs.