My Story

It’s now December 2012 and this past January I underwent a double orchiectomy. This wasn’t anything I had asked for but had to be performed out of medical necessity. That necessity however was the result of some of my life choices along the way. I am not sad of the turn of events and thought you might like to read about a real accounting of undergoing the procedure.

In my case I am transgendered (male to female) and as a result of the prescribe medications I’ve taken over the years it did have an effect on my maleness. Most effects were desired, the one wasn’t anything I was looking for.

Early on in my exploring living fulltime as a woman, I was put on Depo-Provera for about six months. That gave me a “taste” of what it would be like not to have a body under the influence of testosterone.

My first injection was in the doctor’s office. I didn’t just walk in one day to my doctor as ask for a shot to have an effect on my libido. I first had a full physical. My doctor was aware of my feminine side since I came to my physical dressed as a woman. We had a fairly long discussion about my appearance and history. I told my doctor that I had felt that I was a woman in a man’s body and came to a decision several months ago to start living as a woman. My doctor asked if I had been seeing any health care therapist which I said I had not. My doctor then asked if that was something I would be interested in.

Truthfully I answered that I had not really considered it prior to now but I was open to any suggestions. My doctor told me that she knew of a psychiatrist that she highly could recommend that I see since she also regularly treats transgendered patients. My doctor made a call to set up an appointment. Once the physical was completed I was told when to call for the results of my tests and left the office, with another appointment in two days.

Two days later I had my first visit with this new doctor and eventually stayed with her ever since. During my visits I did admit to her that I wasn’t happy with my “male” organ’s responses and wished there was a way to keep it under control. By then she knew that I was serious about being transgendered and told me that there were several medications I could take having various effects. The one that she and I agreed was the best first step was for me to go on Depo-Provera.

The main effects of Depo-Provera on genetic males are to basically crash the body’s ability to produce testosterone. The results of the loss of testosterone were that whatever aggressive side to me that existed prior to taking it subsided over the first two weeks. Essentially I became quite passive and emotional. Depo-Provera also has a feminizing effect on males who take it and I was no different.

Since I already was living as a woman, these changes weren’t unwelcomed. After six months my doctor and I decided it was time for me to get off Depo-Provera and started on female hormones commonly taken by male to female transgendered people.

Over the next five years my male libido never returned. Last year (2011) I started to have period pain in my testicles which by now had shrunk in from their original size. Some of the shrinkage did occur while I was on Depo-Provera but most happened size. What ended up causing the pain in my testicles was direct caused and effected to all of the prescribe meds I’d been on.

This past January (2012) the pain started to become more frequent and more sustained. My regular doctor had monitored things and finally sat me down and told me that the only way for me to have the pain to stop would be to undergo a double orchiectomy. I knew what that meant. By now my testicles had basically become two dead little things that even if I stopped taking female hormones would never recover. Tests had confirmed that I already was sterile so having them removed was more of a technicality.

While most accounts of an orchiectomy (legally performed) do talk about it being performed in hospital my doctor’s group has a wing in their practice for minor surgeries. My procedure was scheduled for January 13th, 2012, which was a Friday. I needed to be there at 10 am.

I was told that they would not perform the surgery if I drove myself. Since I couldn’t arrange a friend to drive me there I took a cab. A close girlfriend of mine would pick me up.

The actual procedure wasn’t very long. It was performed under local anesthesia. Not to be graphic but I was asked prior to the surgery if I wanted to see “them” once they were out. I don’t know why but I said I did. It wasn’t as shocking as I thought it would be but the moment I saw them I knew this was a one-way decision.

Since the operation my “sac” has shrunk somewhat. I had the option of having prosthetic testicles put in but declined it. Since I am not planning on having full SRS shrinkage isn’t a problem.

Since having the surgery I have not had any negative effects. I guess if I wasn’t a male to female transgendered person and had full male hormones flowing through my body I would have noticed changes (other than the physical change).

The best thing I can say about my experience is that I now no longer have any pain down there and am happy to have undergone it.
spikeheels69 spikeheels69
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7 Responses Dec 2, 2012

Can you still get an erection?

Glad it took care of the pain. Must make you feel like more of a woman not having them

I lost mine several years ago because of serious orchialgia (pain) after being on replacement testosterone for quite a while. After a lot of testing and doctor visits, my options were either extremely invasive surgery to implant a neuro-stimulator to try and control the pain or much less invasive bilateral orchiectomy. My wife and I had already been discussing this for years since the birth of our last child, so it wasn't a major issue, I didn't go for prosthetics either.

I'm so glad for you that it was a welcome change and not something you cared about losing. I've often fantasized that there would be a medical (and therefore acceptable) reason that I would have to lose my testicle. (Yes, that is singular. I had one that failed to descend and was surgically pulled down when I was 8. It is there but it's so atrophied that it essentially doesn't exist.) If that were to happen I could have an excuse for wanting to live my life as a woman rather than a man.

Wow!! Amazing experience and I'm am happy that you have shared it with those of us on EP. Also glad to hear you are now pain free.

That was quite some story. I am so happy for you and the success of the operation. Would you please tell me what the new you is like. Can you discribe to me what the changes have been since the operation and I would like to know, if you can discribe it, what the differences are mentaly. Has there been any feminine feelings which you have discovered since.

Whatever feminine feelings I have I had prior to my surgical procedure. Hormone wise there really wasn't any changes that I noticed since my testicals had pretty much been beatened into submission with six years of female meds. I can't say what I would have felt had I been a fully functioning male with fully functional testicles but that was not the case.

So now How does it feel to be all the female you can be and do you have any regrets?

Actually how I felt before and after pretty much was the same. I have no regrets since the decision to go ahead was more out of medical necessity.

So glad to hear that. I'll bet you have lots of fun discovering te ins and outs of femininity. I just love the few I have discovered. I would love to meet you one day just to sit and chat for a while

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well by the sound of it you have taken the next BIG step I hope you remain healthy and happy,
Your avatar pic is gorgeous!!
Best of luck,