I Don't Feel Guilty For Cheating...

So I've been friends with this guy for a little over two and a half years now. We've never actually gotten the chance to hang out & we usually talk online. Today would be the first time we ever hung out, alone. & so i was bored @ home with nothing to do & I called him and he said, "come over, there's no one here." I was already dressed and ready to go out since I had plans, but they got cancelled. I was wearing short - shorts & a sweater from Victoria's Secret.

I've always known he was a freak and we used to talk about messin around but that was when we first met and beame friends. It faded away after time though. Well when I got there, I just layed on his bed and he layed next to me. He says, "Damn you have a nice ***...let me touch it." & He goes into touch it.... i didn't stop him becasue well...I liked it! Eventually it escalated and we began to make out & touch each other. He took his shorts off & I took mines off. We didn't have sex because he didn't have a condom on though. He caressed my body, touched me, kissed me, and made me feel so sensual. I wasn't thinking of my boyfriend at all....

When it was all over, I thought of my boyfriend. & even though I knew it was wrong, I didn't feel bad. My boyfriend doesn't turn me on like my friend did. He's not the same. My bf is soft and gentle, my friend was rough and agressive & i LOVED that.
I guess I'm losing interest in my boyfriends sexual ways.