I CheatedI’ve always despised cheaters, but yet I am one.
I’ve been married 7 years. With my husband for 11 years.
My husband had gotten promoted at work.. and with that came late hours and lots of traveling.
I love my husband. He’s an incredible man. I am blessed to have him in my life. He’s working hard so that I don’t and that we can retire and travel.
I stop to get a coffee Monday-Friday.. and that’s where this story unfolds. It was there I met a man. We did just friendly chat.. 4 months passed of this friendly chat when he asked for my phone number, because he was moving to another city.. and wanted to stay in touch... And I gave it to him. He started texting me that day. I ignored him for 2 months. Until one day I got a text saying “what’s your email I have a video I want to send you”.. so I gave him my email. It was then we started emailing back and forth. He was completely aware I was married.
One day his cat died, so I met him for happy hour. Nothing happen. We talked, hugged him goodbye.
In April, my husband was leaving for a business trip for 2 weeks. I met this man for a date. And that was that was the begging of the physical affair.
I want to be as honest as I can. Because I can’t tell people I’m having an affair…
With that being said I am in love with this man. My husband is 6 years older than me. my affair 1 year.
Is it possible to love 2 men at the same time?
My love affair isn’t married. In fact, he’s put his life on hold because he loves me and wants to be with me “forever”.. as he says.
I’ve said “goodbye” to him twice. Not for my sake (although I should do it for my marriage and husband) I said my goodbye to him because I want him to move on with his life. I feel bad, that he loves me like he does. I want him to be happy. Because the only time he and I fight is because of the “situation”.. meaning, me being married. But I have said goodbye to him twice. He comes back.
We meet at his house mostly. He’s introduced me to his whole family as his girlfriend. Weird and dangerous, I know.
Some of his closer family members and some friends know I’m married.
My love affair talks about having babies with me and making a family. I never wanted babies.. until him.
When we make love. It’s out of this world. It’s not just sex. It’s almost like we were meant to be. And not just the sex. Everything.; music, conversations, we get each other humor…I could go on and on.. I never in my life thought I could or would connect with anyone on this level. Is it because he is an affair that I feel like I do? Or is it because we are soul mates?
The bad side of my affair.. is, he’s broke. Very broke. I mean money wise.
My husband and I make good money. And I feel like my affair uses me for my money. It is annoying at times
For NYE.. I was going to spend it with my love affair. He recently landed a great job and has been working, feeling good about himself.
He was going to surprise me with the location and what we were going to do. He’s always full of surprises.
However, I’ve never taken a weekend off while my husband was in town. So I’m freaking out… and told my love affair that I was scared. He called off NYE.
I think this might be the end of us. Relieved. Irritated. Angered. And sad all at the same time. This just happen hours ago.
I need peoples thoughts.. please. If they be good or bad. I need to hear what people think. Because I’m confused. And I’m so wound up in this.. I don’t know what to do.
I know I’m a terrible person. I know what I’m doing is wrong. I know my husband deserves better.
new post 01/02/2013
it's official- it IS in fact over between me and my love affair.
i'm happy and sad all at the same time. i know it's for the best. i just need to heal from this.
for those that want to cheat and/or are thinking about it; think long and hard.. because i will NEVER do this again. it's awful, heartbreaking, rollercoaster of guilt, anxiety, depression.. think before you have an affair.
thank you ALL for your input.. good and bad. i deeply appreciate it.