I Don't Know Why I Cannot Be Faithful?
I don't know why I cannot be faithful? I mean I want to be I love my husband very much but I am the type of person who just isn't satified with one lover. I don't leave him for them we just hook up and go our own way when were done. I have even tried swinging with my husban thinking it would work and I would not feel so horrible but then I find myself completely jelouse of any women who go nears him and I know it is not right because I am a hypercrite. If I don't cheat on my husband I feel traped and when I do I feel bad. In the past when I have stopped cheating home life became unbareable and he was ready to leave me and I didn't want that so I went back to flings on the side here and there and just so everyone doen't think I am a ***** picking up ramdom men all of these guys are ex-boyfriends and they have all delt with this with me and are quite understanding about what I am dealing with and I was upfront with my husband when I married him and told him about mypast and that I have a hard time being faithful but he married me anyway but the 2 time I have told him I cheated on him he has fliped out and asked me how I could do that to him and I told him "I worned you I was like this when you married you"and he said "yes I know but I thought I would changed you because were married" I don't know but thats my story