Nothing Going On.I never though it would end up like this, day after day week after week,year after year not a hand shake, kiss, or even a hug. My marriage life has come to a complete stand still. As a woman you would think it would not take much to get your man in bed for more than a nights sleep. The short night gowns, no night gown. Nice evening dinner well cooked and prepared just for the two of us; spent by myself. No children at home. i shower him with affection, cress, hug, loving pats on the behind when passing. Still nothing! We have been married 11 years. For 10 1/2 years I have been in a sexless & passionless marriage. I choose to be faithful because when I said I do, in sickness and in health good and bad times, so forth and so fifth.
I guess this is the bad times. I try to make well thought through decisions. Even though my family thinks I should bale, because my husband is more faithful to his friends which I call his family than me.It is hard for my family to accept his apparent actions because he is the Senior Pastor.
He openly excesses his action by stating these people need his personal care. If anyone don't understand this than we are the ones who are evil and in great need of prayer. He is there for their every need. Yes they are married also, but that has not stopped him or them. Do I think its more than simple friendship. Yes, But I am not responsible for him or his actions. As a believer I adhere to my faith and the understanding what goes around comes around. I stand by my convictions pay back is HELL.
katnaps 51-55, F 16 Responses 1 Sep 21, 2011