Faithful By Choice, Sexless Not By Choice.
My wife was diagnosed with stage 1 ovarian cancer many years ago. She was successfully treated, and has been given the all clear by the doctors. However, she needed a complete hysterectomy. This allowed her to survive, but it put an end to what was left of our sex life. She has no sexual desires left, as a result of the procedure, and has no intentions of restarting a sex life. As a result, I have endured years of what is a completely sexless marriage - some would refer to it as "celibate marriage". Coping with it has not been easy - but my sufferings were minor, compared to what my wife had to endure with her cancer.
I understand now that this experience, like all bad things that have transpired in my life, is a trial of faith. I love my wife, and will be loyal and faithful to her for the rest of my life. I cannot and will not leave her, despite the lack of a sex life. Marriage is more than sex - it is a bond of love, both to your spouse, and to God.
Any time that I begin feeling sorry for myself, or angry, or disillusioned, I consider this fact. If my wife had not survived, then I would have faced raising two children entirely on my own. Both of my parents are deceased, and my only sibling has vanished from my life. This would have been an untenable situation, and quite frankly, my children really needed their mother more than their father. I am blessed with two wonderful children, and they would not have turned out as well as they have, if my wife were not here.
My marriage vows are sacrosanct and indissoluble. I will remain faithful to her, no matter what. I made a vow to God, and I will honor it, to the death. And if my wife pre-deceases me, I will find a way to move on with my life - but with an entirely clear conscience.
I would appreciate the feedback of other folks, who have had similar experiences or circumstances. Thank you.